March 2012
1 post
your heel has crushed my heart each day for the past two years.
when i hear my own voice, i see your lips.
when i touch my skin, i imagine your hands.
and so many times, i’ve wanted to tell you…
when you’re done with all the rest of them, i’ll be here. i’ll be waiting.
but i can’t. i can’t, anymore. i want to go somewhere else so that i never have...
February 2012
33 posts
i’m entirely unsure of what exactly it is about you that makes you so appealing.
my knee-jerk negativity doesn’t scare you away.
my drunken friends don’t alarm you.
when i hop into the middle of a bar brawl to break it up, you pull me back.
your eyes comfort me in a strange way. i don’t know.
mind/body/light/sound
just when you think it can’t get harder
pot portlandia pizza perfection
incredibly disturbed.
my kink just broke vlv
fuck
i legitimately can’t remember the last time i felt this separated from everything i care about and love. there is no turning back.
i deleted your phone number.
it feels good.
til tomorrow.
sigh.
so worked up, so broken down.
all synapses misfiring, all words jumbled right out of the gate and i’m speechless. your past is a mystery to me and i can’t help but strain against my desire to know it. it’s claustrophobic, this feeling of need and attraction. the norm is what becomes accepted and expected, and this is
so
far
removed from all of that.
my heart feels like...
kind of glad that you left while i was in the shower, because it makes it much easier for me to go to work.
why are you so cute.
oh, this pattern has got to stop. silly silly silly feelings
perpetually, pointlessly heartbroken.
so stupid. i want to turn everything off.
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it’s extremely refreshing to throw caution to the wind and have an unabashed crush on someone. honestly, it feels like high school. it feels like a pre-sex crush. even though we’ve already fucked. and that’s pretty insanely cool.
i just think you’re really really cute. and you’re actually nice. so far removed from everything that typically turns me on…...
January 2012
40 posts
you’re really really lame but you’re phenomenal in bed
secret scummy lover.
no, i don’t want to go out in public with you. shhh.
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what’s more healthy, going out to a bar and having fun and drinking yourself into a stupor and passing out when you get home and experiencing sleep paralysis every night OR staying home alone smoking mad weed eating a bunch of bullshit playing skyrim until you force yourself to go to bed around 4am and still can’t sleep?
can’t sleep despite mopey ulver and several bourbon drinks and a good bit of time spent with steamroller and working eleven hours today why.
same old addiction creeping back. all it takes is a couple of drinks and i’m willing to respond to your messages. i’m incredibly fortunate that i’m leaving relatively soon; i won’t be able to get caught up in all of your...
